Surrendering in Seasons of Change


For some reason, people all around me are in this transitional stage of moving between jobs. Some of these have been a long time coming type of transition, while others it’s been by the winds of perceived randomness.

My flatmate and I are both sharing our struggles in trying to find a job. This idea of what is happening, why aren’t things on the move, are my talents not appropriate for the role, what even is the purpose?! My flatmate describes it as quarter life crisis, more or less.

Although she did mention that I was handling the whole situation surprisingly well. Of course I do wonder and at times get a little frustrated with lack of a job that doesn’t seem to lead to achieving the ultimate goal of animating educational programmes for children (or at least that is my current target).

Then I remember of course the sole purpose is to bring glory to God! To remember that the time that we have here is practically an insignificant blip. That really the main meal is still yet to come. I’ve had a lot of encouragement the past few weeks being back in central London and reconnecting with old family members of the church. A verse my pastor brought up for encouragement was:

1 Peter 4:7-8

The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

It really struck me because when you think about it, the end of all ages… what would you really want to do? To live life to the full right? To spend each moment fulfilling your own happiness through pleasures of the world or running to your family to make sure they are happy and safe etc. Maybe to get drunk and heighten your feelings with an overflow of dopamine.

God’s longing for us to actually to have clarity! To be alert and mindful to keep in right relations with Him. To above all LOVE each other deeply…. because love covers a multitude of sins!?!??! Even till the end of days, to be selfless and loving not just our family, not just our friends, but everyone around us!

Our small groups at church have been going through Titus and this other verse has really spoken to me:

Titus 3:14

Our people must learn to devote themselves to doing what is good, in order to provide for urgent needs and not live unproductive lives.

And so even though I have this really weird space of time where I’m not studying or working, God is encouraging me to still be productive, but productive spiritually! Someone from church too was really struck by this because all his life he’s been very driven to making the most of the day, to live a productive life to achieving those target goals at work. He realized he had never thought about if he could be productive spiritually for Christ!

This challenged my thinking and time with God to really channel it to how can I give back to my church family who have provided so much for me during my years there? To be more aware of the suffering that is on going in this world, locally and what I can do to relieve some of it and share Jesus in the process?

This has spurred me on to meeting up with church family more often, reconnecting more with friends and family, and volunteering for the local homeless food & social company provisions.

God gives me incredible encouragement, even whilst the future ahead of me is a fog of uncertainty. This is because I delight in God, and there is always much work to the furthering of His Kingdom that brings Him much joy!



One thought on “Surrendering in Seasons of Change

  1. Dearest Hilda,
    Thank you for your inspiring and pure and wonderful sharing of your life walking in God’s ways. It is both challenging and thought provoking and leaves me wanting and wishing to be in your shoes at times. We as your parents will always support you knowing that what you think and do will always have God as your number one priority in life on earth. We as your parents are indeed fortunate and blessed to have you as our one and only child. Thank you God, our loving and merciful Lord.

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