It’s been ages since I’ve updated. So below was my first pin-up, shame I didn’t manage to take a photograph of my crit, though to be honest wasn’t in my opinion good. It was more like meh. After nearly a week I’m finally feeling relatively better. It’s the first time I’ve actually been feeling this stressed about my work. Yes, usually I would feel stressed but not to ever have the additional pressure.
I absolutely love and adore my tutors. Not to say that my previous tutors did not care about my work – though I do think that all tutors in general also have their own motivations for us to do good as obviously our performance reflects on their teaching – but last year I felt like I was doing work out of fear more than enjoyment.
This year, I feel like I have such loving and gentle tutors and that to me fits much better. This makes me feel because they are so nice, kind and helpful that it boosts my ‘I-want-to-do-better’ attitude even more! If I don’t perform well, it makes me feel guilty as I want to make them proud.
This has been one of the most challenging things this week as the crit for me was the big turning point that soon after that stunted my efficiency and progress. It wasn’t until last night that I started producing something worth looking at. I’m glad anyway and I thank God. It has been so draining on me that I feel more distant from God.
This week it’s been difficult to trust and lean on Him. I have so many thoughts just buzzing through my mind – troubles of flat, pre-planning with friends, thinking about my boyfriend, pressured by work. I’m just so grateful for my roommate and God loving friends in uni that support me and remind me of God’s grace.
Although I’m still not feeling very prepared to show my work to my tutor tomorrow, I feel more at ease as I’ve done all I can do and leave it all in God’s hands. Besides, this Saturday I’ll be leaving to Italy for 8 days with my unit and I’m nervous and excited for it!
Food highlights ❤
Theo and I baked banana cake 🙂 I’m so grateful to have a boyfriend who can bake! It’s actually amazing.
Had afternoon tea with a dear friend ❤ It was at Searcys champagne bar at St Pauls, not bad for the price considering that we also had a free champagne with the tea.
Entertainment highlight ❤
So a friend and I went to Ai Weiwei’s exhibition at the Royal Academy. It’s running until 13th Dec and it was amazing.
Sneak peak here:
Ancient Chinese pottery painted over and with advertisement. Ai brings to surface the value of ancient artifacts and understandings of perhaps the desperate means of advertising.
Grass and an unexpected pram made of marble.
Many rods that were salvaged and straightened from the Si Chuan earthquake. Up on the wall were all the names of the children that died in the earthquake, which was partially due to the cheap materials chosen for construction by the government. This political project gave rise to the government’s anger against Ai.
A miniaturized model of the room Ai Weiwei was held captive. He had two guards who were constantly at his side watching him eat, sleep, shower etc.
Great exhibition, would highly recommend it!