Complete Ignorance

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I want to write a letter to a friend. This letter is a response to a past conversation between us that was cut off. We never picked it up again. In writing this letter I hope to gain the courage to let this person know. 

Dear X, 
You wanted me to finish talking from earlier on? I’m actually pretty scared of talking because I feel you would not appreciate it. That’s why I’m hesitant sometimes. Ok I’ll let you know honestly and to the best that I understand: the people who have issues with you love you but are I suppose avoiding because they cannot handle or do not know what to say to help you understand because after all you only can realize why this is so. The ‘people’ I know of are not ‘many’, just to clarify I’m not saying everyone. I’m just saying ‘people’ to protect them. But this information I understand is not of recent times it’s more of what you did. I know you don’t backstab now at least not to my knowledge and not saying it has anything to do with that, the point I’m making is that you are changing to be a better person. I only recall people’s issues of your irresponsibility, tendency to assume closeness therefore intrude with rashness and quick to stereotype and not change your opinion. Not saying that you still do any of these things it’s only what I have heard. And as for what I feel, I didn’t like how you mentioned you were ‘better’ at controlling your sexual desires because I felt that you were talking right at me. Of course it’s no big deal but like ouch man!

Warning people is difficult. Warning of bad news or good news because of expectations or the stubbornness (close mindedness) that comes with it. I’ve looked at what happened when I made my own decisions, and when I decided to follow Christ and his values, I can see all the difference! And for me I feel so happy. He does make me complete and one of the reasons why people think we are foolish is because God says give away your money to the poor, forgive your enemies etc and they don’t understand why we do it.

What we see, what we hope for is in what is unseen.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

1 Peter 1:8
Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy
[read 1 Peter 1:3-9]

Also, just like any relationship, we’ve GROWN to love God and rarely love God naturally. We love Him because He is good and His promise of happiness by seeing Him at the every end is something we look forward to. We love Him because he loves us first, and because He works in our lives according to our motives… how the more we know of Him, understand His values, see His works the more we love. Just like any relationship, you have to build on it. Also promises here on Earth not just in heaven. And when we don’t so called ‘succeed’ in making a scientific/economic/artistic achievement that’s called unproductivity? Gosh well I have no hope then (I’m saying religion and more specifically Christianity is not a waste of time)! What I’m also trying to understand is why do we live? What do we live for? There are many manuals that tell us how to live but not why. For the sake of science? For the sake of art? Or for the sake of God? Non-believers SEE the material side of the world. That is why they may believe (I use may because I don’t know about all) that we are naive. Assuming you’ve accepted the existence of God, you know of His works and His values… well oh great what next? It’s all so boring. 

With that ‘boring’ thing in mind, it gives me the impression that If you know the spouse you will marry for the rest of your life she would bore you. You know you are going to live ‘happily’ till the end of your days… How boring is that!!! Sense the sarcasm? I suppose that’s why there’s so much affairs and porn nowadays. The world’s really going crazy and some people are just so blind to it’s negative effects, or rather they turn a blind eye. 

What I’m saying is that I love God, He will never bore me. God is like fire, always the same core value of ‘fire’ yet physically always flickering, making it hard to look away from it’s magnificence. I love you, I love my family, there will be times of still waters but I’ll never be forever bored. Christians are called to grow and never stop developing. 

2 Peter 1:3-9
[5-9] make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge;6 and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins.

 

Btw did you notice my hypocrisy? I know in my heart and have mentioned to you before that people should warn each other their faults. I’m actually scared of doing so. 

Also the sad truth is… you don’t see it. You don’t see how if your unforgiving mindset is applied to everyone else, avoiding those that do you harm… you don’t see how much smaller your circle of friends would be. Because I have realised now even more people dislike you that I thought. Some might not really care as well. It hurts because I care about you, but I hope you can see one day, the faults that everyone has. That they are real and everything that God has warned us about, is out of His love for us. The truth is… the truth… is that God is right. He’s right about everything and we refuse to see it, just like a rebellious kid struggling against parents who love and care for them. 

What I really hope is… that you can just see or admit that God’s ways are righteous and He means us no harm. If you can accept His love and grace and make that decision to turn to Him. That’s really all you need to do. Everything else will fall into place. 

Love,

Hilda.

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